Inside Out, Upside Down

Every now and then, we experience a shake-up in our lives, a powerful storm which rattles our spiritual bones and tests our firm foundation. The nature of life in a fallen world basically ensures us that no matter how hard we might strive for perfection, cling to our routines, and plan for lasting happiness, these shake-ups will prevent us from ever attaining paradise on this side of eternity.

Sometimes, these shake-ups come through external circumstances, situations outside our control and over which we have no choice. In an instant and without consulting us first, we find our worlds turned inside out and upside down. 

2018 Resolutions for the Heart: Psalm 26

“Vindicate me, Lord, for I have walked in my integrity, 
And I have trusted in the Lord without wavering.”

What if it could be said about us that we are people of integrity? What if those we know or encounter walk away with a shake of their heads and a simple, “Now, he is a person who trusts the Lord,” or, “She is a woman of unwavering faith in God”?

The Ugly Christmas

Two Sundays ago, I cried at church. I guess “cry” isn’t a strong enough term for the catharsis that happened in one of the rooms of our children’s area…maybe “wept” would be a better description. 

A Lesson in Gratitude

I’d like to think I’ve lived long enough now that I really understand the cycle of things. I don’t mean that I can intellectually discuss “life” or that I might mentally say “this is how things are,” but instead, that deep within my soul, I possess true comprehension, acceptance — peace, even about how it all works. I’d like to think that by now, in my mid-30s, I wouldn’t be surprised or concerned by the largely unsettled or unresolved status of different aspects of my life. 

Where Fears Are Stilled

I sometimes find myself idly wondering how long the actual incident lasted. 7 seconds? 12? I know in moments of crisis, time seems to stand still, and those critical seconds of a traumatic experience seem to stretch much longer in our minds than they do in reality. 

Looking back, I know it didn’t last as long as I felt it did. The number of seconds could probably be shown with the ten fingers of my two hands. I spend 8-10 seconds everyday performing an infinite variety of different tasks, and very few of those short bursts of time ever impact me beyond the moment. But in this case, it’s incredible how a single digit number of seconds has been imprinted upon my memory and impacted my life forever. 

#MeToo: A Darkness to Light Story

We had a clearly defined relationship, one with uncomplicated spoken and unspoken rules. There were straightforward roles, obvious boundaries — he the superior, I the subordinate. Around twice my age, he held a position of respected authority, trusted by others and expected to operate within the boundaries of that position. 

Except that he didn’t.